If something is worth saying, it should be worth hearing. That’s the filter I ought to use.
I am not good at marketing myself or even presenting myself on social media. I constantly have to remind my ego that what I say and do isn’t for anyone else’s benefit. And I still forget that sometimes.
It doesn’t help that I have a high opinion of who I am coupled with a desire to never make people feel inferior or incapable. But I definitely know that I can be an asshole. After all, people can just be so stupid.
But that is a product of the society they have been born into, stories I can never know, and a variety of psychological factors produced by genetics, nurture, and scientists don’t even know what else.
The belief that I am completely unique resides alongside the knowledge that I am no different from anyone else. It is hard to define the gap between faith and reality. And often I can find my mind blurring the two.
“Brag girl! Brag all you want. You are amazing! You are living.”
“Yeah and if they are annoyed with you, tell ’em they can go suck a fat one.”
I am also trying to find the border between bravado and confidence.
But borders are myths. Creations designed to keep us functioning on scales larger than we usually take time to fathom. (This is true if we subscribe to the Yuval Noah Harari method of thinking. He is the author of Sapiens: A Brief History of Humankind. An intensely beneficial subscription when held in careful balance with the games we play to survive the present.)
It all comes back to I’m just winging it. And so are you. You have no idea what you’re really doing.
It’s okay though. You’re not alone.
You can’t be. There are 7 billion people.