Four deep, rich eyes filled with curiosity watched me as I answered their questions one by one.
“Is there Borax in America?”
“What kind of cars are in California?”
“Can you send me pictures of the big cities?”
“What sort of music do you listen to?”
“How do you solve a Rubiks cube?”
“Why do you have to leave?”
I’m rarely at a loss for words. And I definitely wasn’t here, but at the same time, it gave me pause.
Why do I have to leave? If I really wanted to, I could have stayed.
And then I remembered, I don’t want to stay.
I’m not good at hiding. Or being quiet. Or subtlety. I hate feeling stuck. I am constantly aiming to expand the places I feel at home so I have more places to return to. I’m addicted to thinking and consequently I always see the possibilities beyond my current place.
With each home my roots grow, and the rest of me shudders with the anticipation of my next move.
Yes there is Borax in America. I’m pretty sure the mines are near where I live.
I think there are more kinds of cars in California than here.
Of course I can send pictures.
Not the kind of music you know well.
You memorize steps and practice.
Because I was not created to simply stay.
And because I’m getting emails from the New Zealand Department of Immigration saying I have to leave…